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things i see when i walk around - Don't tell anybody anything
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ebinfraggle
Date: 2015-04-04 23:13
Subject: things i see when i walk around
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so I've mentioned how sometimes when I am walking I will close my eyes for what is an unhealthy amount of time to still be moving without seeing but I am oddly comfortable with this. and sometimes it's honestly just better than the alternative. have you seen people and what they do now a days?
actually further justification for my eyes closed belief reared it's ugly head tonight on my way to work. I stopped at the store across the street to pick up what would become my dinner tonight. I had my backpack with the book I will read tonight and room for whatever I planned to buy left in it, and I had Mr. Brown with me as well. As I walk up I see a woman in the driver seat of vehicle on her phone and crying. I knew her.She is a grad student at the University and taught a class I took last year. She still remembers me as well, despite who knows how many students she's had. It was a writing class and I was at times a bit (too) honest about my life and things I've seen and done and therefore I might be harder to forget than your average 19 year old college kid but still, I find it weird that she says hi to me when we see each other. And it was especially weird tonight. You see she waved to me and smiled. It was a terrible smile, I could tell she was crying, she was sad. I mean logically she was either on the phone with someone consoling her from what made her sad or she was still on the phone with someone who told her something that/or that did make her sad. I waved back and smiled. I mean what was I supposed to do. She's a sweet girl. A couple weeks back she asked me about my dogs. She meant Monster and Hoots and I had to tell her that I didn't have either. That my ex took Monster and I had to get rid of Hoots, since she was never really mine in the first place. When I responded thusly she was so dreadfully embarrassed. I reassured her it was okay, it is the way of life and it's not like we know each other that well. She was just making small talk and I would never fault someone for doing that poorly.
I wanted to help her, I wanted to go ask her what was wrong. this would be wildly inappropriate given how well we don't know each, as mentioned above but I still can't help but want to try to make things better. Maybe it's some sort of weird personal concept of archaic chivalry but I can't help it. I see a woman crying and I want to make it stop, make it better. I am an idiot.
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Fire Child
User: direwind
Date: 2015-04-06 05:11 (UTC)
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Maybe you are just kind.
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ebinfraggle
User: ebinfraggle
Date: 2015-04-07 23:36 (UTC)
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nope I'm an idiot
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Fire Child
User: direwind
Date: 2015-04-08 13:26 (UTC)
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I can't exactly argue with that.
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